Just like with cellphones, our own “battery” can run low and needs to be recharged. See how Zoey’s battery gets recharged by “orienting to God” and visiting with a good, safe friend.
“Going Numb” happens when life becomes too scary, too overwhelming for kids who do not have nurturing and safe-enough caregivers to help them through painful things. It is a survival mechanism that prevents them from fully feeling terror and fear.
Zoey is wrestling with trusting Jesus to protect and care for the precious burdens she has been carrying most of her life.
Sometimes we feel lost and confused about who we are. We seem to be a shell of who we used to be. This is where Zoey is at as she pours out her heart to Jesus, telling Him all about it and asking Him to care for her.
Many people who survived childhood abuse habitually & unconsciously check out (dissociate) and feel numb. This poem is about Zoey beginning to believe Jesus could love her when she’s checked out and using addictive behaviors in her efforts to not be overwhelmed by pain.
A poem about understanding emotional flashbacks, which results in us feeling as helpless & hopeless as we felt as kids, even though we are now adults.