Zoey feels shame over being triggered so easily and struggles with some people judging her harshly. She’s wrestling with laying that shame down so she can experience deep joy and gratitude that comes from the good work Jesus is doing inside of her and the hard work she is putting in, to change & heal.
Many people who survived childhood abuse habitually & unconsciously check out (dissociate) and feel numb. This poem is about Zoey beginning to believe Jesus could love her when she’s checked out and using addictive behaviors in her efforts to not be overwhelmed by pain.
Some people believe not only that making mistakes are bad, but that they are a mistake. Zoey is in the process of replacing that belief with the truth that she is NOT a mistake, but deeply wanted and loved by Jesus.
A poem about much rejoicing in being found by the One Who Sees Us.
A poem about no longer having to smile and pretend we are fine when we are not. Those are old skills learned from being in an unsafe home. Jesus helps us learn to feel safe and be authentic.